Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Today, i dawdle around the school questing for you. I dastardly walked towards you and sat by you, i felt debility whenever i am with you, as i am debarred from messaging you....
You are debonair and vibrant, you always make my day feels right, without you my life just cannot go on. I know i am defile, i am not as immaculate as you thought. i really delve for something more then friends between us, yet i could not accept the truth from you. I just cannot compromise, the truth that was set before me. Now i dread a conclave time with you, as i felt a compunction, when you are adjacent by me and not with your friends. I know it is very obnoxious.
I know you had blot out alot of things that was not disclose, but having you by my side is not just as a duck takes to water. As you are always away from your desk, i know i am demanding, but it is because victoria, always do this to me that is why i am quite plaintive about it....
Yet, everytime, you came into my life and brigthened it, at the eleventh hour.. I know you are at heart a caring person, a prodigy in moral values... Now, i am struggling to abandon myself to dispair, but everytime, when i think of you, i would abase myself so as to appease the calamity and befuddles i had in my life....
i accede to my defeat, if there is a better guy out there that you like.... I know i could not hold you for long, as i know one day, you might just slick out of my hands and into others...
Afterall, a picture holds a thousand words.... i do not know when will i fall into dispair, as i am still struggling with it....
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2:40 AM
