Thursday, June 28, 2012
Dear diary, i had just finished my exam papers and they aint easy :(( but i am going to let go and let God do the rest, because i know i have done my utmost best. Recently i watched a movie called, the perfect man. This movie inspired me to be a perfect guy for my future spouse, however, is it really attainable? i wondered. That is because i had past sins which until now i can still not let go, how to know truly know that God has forgiven me and have forgotten about all my past sins? Finally, a friend of mine, spoke to me saying that God will never forsake us nor abandon us, for His son has died on the cross for all our sins and hence we can stand on that fact and be assured that, God has forgiven us and will forgive us in the future.To all the people out there, having the same thought as me, i hope you will be able to find answers to your questions and doubts in the following scripture, phillipians 4:6-9. Finally, i would like to end off by saying, I have fallen in love with someone whom i do not know whether God has given me, i truly love her God and i wonder how long this emotion is going to last..... The girl which i miss so dearly, will never be able to read all these post, because she doesnt even know that i post. Hope that God will help me find a way out of this mire situation and it will be able to bode well of God's true intentions for love.
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8:05 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Dear diary, i am doing this out of the abundance of my heart... i do not know what i am going to or about to say, but i just want to tell myself, that i am being truthful to myself. I really do and in fact i think i still cannot get over you, TESSA. i know this sounds a little selfish and self-centred, cause i do not know how to bid goodbye to our past. I think this time, it really marks the end of our relationship. Tessa, i know that i am not fit to be with you, as the times i had with you, are mostly hurts and sorrows. i seldom have fun and memorable time with you... though, we had some nice moments together. I always remember what you tell me and i believe that there are many guys out there, that will and would fall for you. i truly think that those guys, are way better than me, taller than me, smarter than me, more nice looking and definitely more loving than me. i do not know what our future holds, but i just want you to be happy. As long as you are contented, i am delighted. Happiness, does not always meant that we have to be together, however, if we can it would be great. Hence, i am willing to let go and let God. i still like you tessa.
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11:55 PM
Thursday, November 4, 2010
I love the word NAVI.... i am graduating already... finally, yet i still feel weary and anguish.... Why is this happening to me? i thought i am a person, with not much feelings... i should be a block of wood.... yet, i am filled with much emotions... MR CHIA, the person whom had inspired me to be a Lawyer..... i want to use this profession, to reach out to people that does not know God, jesus and the Holy spirit... The super camp was indeed superb... it was way beyond comprehension.... i would give three thumbs up if i have... XD.... hope that one day, i would be able to see all my secondary school mates and MR CHIA.... the teacher who had changed my life....
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12:22 AM
Thursday, June 17, 2010
LOVE can be defined, classified, categorized and identified by the four letters that are present in the word, LOVE. L-loving, O-one, V-very, E-enthusiastically... These are the reason, why i love you. I love you, tesss, the one and only one, sooo much that i cannot bear to hurt you, cause i know, i cannot provide you with much love and concern anymore. One day, i hope you will be able to have someone, that loves you just as much as i love you. Well, maybe you have already, remember the guy you told me about? I think, he is able to love you just as much as i do. Leaving you, in his hands, would mean happiness to you, then i think i will die with no further regrets. I really do not mean to leave you, but i really do love you. Yet, i want you to know that though, you may not like me anymore, in fact, you may hate me. But i want to tell you that, i will always adhere to my promise to you. I will be at beck and call for you, i will be there when you need me. Thanks, for all the moments that you had given me. Looking back, time seems to fly sooooo fast, i really hope that i will be able to stop time, be able to control the amount of time, we spent together. You, tess, is the most awesome girl, i had ever loved... It was really the first time, that i cried for a girl, in fact, i cried over the phone, i felt hopeless and useless, cause i am a guy, yet, i am shedding tears for a girl... To end this off, i would like to tell you, tess, that i truly love you and that fact will never change... not at this point of time.Labels: hope that you will not hate me too much....
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8:24 PM
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I had been shunning from posting since i got to know you. Finally, i was able to haul back the love that i once lost. This is a feeling which are aptly termed by many, the feeling of LOVE. Love has its own pros and cons. You are an apple to my eye, i know this is obnoxious to you, but the truth will be revealed in time to come.
I do not know how to express to you the very deep feelings i have for you, i know you will never be able to accept me, as i am grotesque and not favorable for you. I really hope time will permit me to forget you, as i know that for us to have happiness, one has to sacrifice... I really hope one day, you maybe able to get what i mean.... this is a post not for nat.
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3:31 AM
Thursday, March 4, 2010
I think i finally have three very good pals, but the one that i cherish the most is Alvin. He is a benevolent and gracious person, he will try to give in to my sloppy attitude..... As everyone knows that i have a petty heart, yet i want him to know that i want him as my friend forever, if we can live that long. Next, though i know you will not read my post, but i want you to know that my heart has never change. I am really in love with you, if you know what that means.... I guess you must have forgotten the times that we had together, the times we share... I think now, i am the only one keeping all these memories.... Now i know how it feels like when someone, ignores you or cannot reciprocate your love for her/him. I hope GOD will really make a way for me, a way out of this tragedy....
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3:26 AM
Monday, March 1, 2010
Alvin, toniko, vivienne are my pals in school... i hope i can continue to be with them... There is something, which i had hid from a lot of people and only those three people know..... Yet, i am revealing it to my blog now... i know loving you, thinking about you, hoping that you might love me back, are just dreams and fantasies of mine...Yet, I really LOVE you a lot... i know you do not like me anymore, yet i want you to know that i am willing to wait for you... I will keep my resolve, till you love me, or at least like me... I really hope to have you again... NAT. NG KAI YU....
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5:51 AM
